Reading and song.

I've been reading things here and there revolving around feminism. I had never been particularly interested in feminism before, until this article where Anna McConnell (who's originally from NYC, studied philosophy at the University of Chicago, and now travels around the USA with her partner, and works at an organic goat farm in New Mexico, I mean COME ON!) expresses her inner and self-destroying thoughts and feelings about herself, or the idea of what her self should be as a "woman"; she talks about the self-doubt that morphs into distracting bouts of anxiety, the guilt of feeling so weak, and the double-guilt for feeling that guilt; the shame that comes with this layering and the self-inflicted punishment in a quiet wallow in ugliness. I'm so glad you're still reading! Turns out her brain and mine share a quite similar, if not the exact same suffocating thought process, which got me interested in those ideas of conditioning and dodged freedom. Simone de Beauvoir's the Second Sex, which studies the figures of the narcissist, the woman in love and the mystic, is a pretty depressing and dramatizing read, though necessary in my research process. Which brings me to thiiiiisss: rookiemag.com which is a lot more fun, and all about female liberation and fun times and obsessive minds over everything and anything, written and inspired by any one of all ages who are still figuring things out.

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My song, or what you may call narrative over random base notes, but then again what is a song really, therefore enjoy: